Dear Diary. If you miss sleep then you can start having hallucinations. Like yesterday for example. I hallucinated there was something small and black moving on the floor.

I rubbed my eyes and looked again and saw that it was real. It was an ant. I bent down to look and there were 30 or 40 ants crawling over a piece of discarded cracker on the floor. I took the cracker and threw it in the toilet along with the ants.

There are more ants. They follow the wall, you can see them travelling along the bottom of the wall. I guess they do that to avoid getting stepped on.

At noon, I finished the second of the two books that I brought with me and without a book, life at the hospital becomes boring. There's nothing to do. I walked around the room looking at the TV remote, putting it back, picking up the phone, putting it back. I went to the second-hand shop nearby. There was a sign that said "5 books for 3 euros". But I couldn't find five books I wanted. There were just hundreds and hundreds of bad books. In the end, I found two books and took them to the till. The woman at the till charged me two euros per book so those two books cost four euros, which was more than five books would have cost. I should have just picked up three more books at random, bought them all for 3 euros, and then thrown the three random books in the bin outside. It would have saved me money.

In the afternoon, I picked up 4-year-old from school because Girlfriend is okay now to move around after the caesarean. She can look after the baby by herself. I picked 4-year-old up and he wanted to go to the sweet shop. I suggested that we go so we can have sweets that are sugar-free because my teeth are fucked up from eating sugar as a kid so I'm not gonna let the same happen to him. But the sweet shop didn't have any sugar-free sweets. Later I realised that some of the sweets are coffee flavoured, I hope they don't have actual caffeine in them. Then he played in the fountain with his friend. They were splashing each other. The sun was shining, it was a nice afternoon. Girlfriend was telling me to hurry up and come back to the hospital but I didn't wanna go back because 4-year-old was laughing and splashing around and getting himself completely wet. He looked like he was having a great time. Getting drenched in this fountain. In the end, his friend fell over and started crying. Her mum came over and that was a good opportunity to get out of there. 4-year-old was distracted. When I got to his grandmother's house to drop him off, his grandmother was angry at me for not letting her know about the birth immediately. She said I should have sent her a message to let her know that Girlfriend was going for a caesarean and to let her know how Girlfriend was. To be fair, she's right. We should have sent her a message. But being in the hospital without anyone visiting because of Covid is great. Because when you're in the hospital and you have a newborn, trust me you won't want anyone visiting because they just annoy you. You want to be alone with your baby and your spouse for a couple of days in the hospital room because your in-laws just annoy you. I don't know about you but they annoy me.

So I get back to the hospital. My mother-in-law and my girlfriend are both pissed off at me. Later on, I wasted an hour because I went to the hospital with my electric scooter only to find out you can't bring electric scooters into hospitals. So I had to ride all the way back home and then walk back to the hospital.