Dear Diary. I spent the day at home. I knew I was having a good day - I started appreciating things like the jingle of my keys. I'd spent it at home (that's where I have most control?). I was having a nice day until I went for a walk in the park. The walk was too long, When I was walking in the park I had feelings I wasn't enjoying it but I also thought of reasons I should be enjoying it. I basically tried to delude myself. I went back to my car saw my reflection in my car window. I looked anguished and miserable. I was surprised when I saw my face in the window. I didn't know I was feeling so miserable. I think that happens a lot. I have to listen to my feelings more.